Incident that happens might change my whole life forever

This incident happens on 16/11/2010 (Tuesday)

my dad apparently looks tired and after he ate dinner he went to bed

so...there noting wrong in the 1st day

17/11/2010(Wednesday)

at early morning same as usual I woke at 4:30 a.m

and my Mon wake at 7:25 a.m but my dad still slping

my mom call me to let him rest then I juz leave him there on the bed

so until it reaches noon I ask my mom

me : Mummy y dad still not awake??

my mom : he's too tired may b

me : can I wake him up??

mom : better don't juz let him rest

me : ok...

at the Evening my dad still won't get up....

and my mom was cooking fish head meehun (a dish)

so this time my mom say "u try to ask him if he 1 2 eat?"

then I go inside his room and wake him

I ask him dad u 1 2 eat dinner???

he shake his head and say no....

*I was thinking*

(ok then...suit yourself )

so until night he didn't even eat..I mean the whole day he didn't eat

so when 11:00p.m I ask agn b4 my mom keeps everything

I ask "dad if u still don't 1 2 eat mummy will keep everything edi"

after my dad heard it (may be/I think he heard it)

he snore *ORKE!!!!!ORKE!!!!!!ORKE!!!!!!*

each time he does it is getting even louder

so...I think he lazy to wake up lar

then I leave him alone

18/11/2010(Thursday)

morning woke up at 4:30 a.m as usual agn...

my mom woke up and my sis gtg for tuition Chemistry...? is it...? lol??

so after my mom fetch ppl to tuition and my sis to tuition too

she came back and she say wat she going to cook w8 the day....

so I think is time that my dad should wake edi it been too long for him to slp

I ran into his room I shake his leg!!!!! dad!!!!! dad!!!! then he answer me

WHAT~!!!!!! *by scolding* I said wake up edi don't keep slping

suddenly he open his eyes I saw his left eyes ran out of space

is like so freaking scary and that time the room was so smelly bcoz he didn't take 1 bath for 2 days

I quickly help him up...but...while helping...me.....

I shout!!!! MUMMY COME NOW bcoz that time I lack of strength

he is too big size and I can't carry neither help him

so my mom rush in as well and saw my dad

my mom say faster bring him into the toilet help him take a bath so he can b awake

we move him using more then 20 minute to the bath room

we cut away his shirt and help him take a bath

that time we juz though that bcoz he 1 day didn't have anything to eat that's y he can't move

or no strength to move

after bath we try to move him to his bed agn to let him rest and we r planning to feed him

but bcoz of the toilet water is too slippery so we can't make any chances to let him slip

but he still instead to move and stand we don't allow him to move bcoz we scared he will hurt himself

so we called the ambulance....actually we juz call the emergency department to help us to carry my dad to his bed

but they called the ambulance so nvm lar

my sis what called back home from his tuition

the ambulance carrier arrive and look at him

they say he might been stroke

I was like!!!!!!! WTF my dad is in stroke???

the carrier say: "we must sent ur father to the hospital to have future more observation and confirm-ability "

so...ok lor we help them and sent my dad to the hospital at Serdang

the ambulance drove damn fast

I think the truck can bet a lightning strike

we reach to Serdang Hospital by using 10-15 minute

is about 12:20 p.m edi we register my dad by paying only RM1

is CHEAPER then the last time I been to hospital

well....they sent my dad to the yellow door which wrote on Zon Separa Kritikal

I think is ok lar he juz tired or wat...

at about 2p.m my sis friend came along

and wow they look after my sis very well

they really are true FRIENDS

and this type of friends hard to be find I'm glad my sister knew them

we all wait and wait until 4:30p.m got some of my sis friend gtg edi

for....tuition and.....other things

but there 3 people which haven't go back

that is Oon Hui,Soo Yin,Kelvin

they stay with us until shadow dark cloud (night)came

I can't believe is.... about 6:45 something my sis

go ask the counter how was my dad

they go check and find out that my dad been sent to the red door which is Zon Kritikal

my sister was so sad and start to cry

I was worry too....and sad...but juz can't cry I have no idea y...

when night The doctor say they 1 2 c my whole family members

so there's where Kendly and Jeremy came

they fetch my mom along as well

so the report say my dad confirm have a stroke edi

and he have inner bleeding in his brain

My dad is advice to transfer to GHKL

bcoz in Serdang don't have specialist doctor 4 his illness

so the transfer have been made and thx to Soo Yin and Kelvin

they reli spend a lot of Petrol/time/asking direction on the way to the GHKL

and they lead us there they reli spend the night with us we go GHKL that time is edi 11:50 something and they both r still there c there's anything to help or not

this IS WHAT I CALL A COMPLETE PERFECT FRIENDS

and kelvin borrows us his phone bcoz my phn,sis phn and my mom's phn are dead

I mean completely dead it means no battery completely

then they go back about 12:40 a.m

so me and my sis and my mom waiting for my dad

and about 2:10a.m my dad came out from the Zon Emergency GHKL

and we were lead to the Wad Saraf is were all patient rest there

reach edi 3:10 a.m this morning

I was extremely exhaustered but can't slp until now I'm still awake.....

Why...Why...and..Why....

Everyone knows growing is a process that everyone have to go through even THE GOD have to go through this growing process....a lot of people start to think at their young age what they are gonna do in the future why is this so...?is it having a aim now is good?how you know before your time comes may be the world is starting to met the end...?so what for having those thinking and stress yourself at young age study to score many A's isn't that stupid??? giving to much hope it will only brings more despair in the future.Now you might have the aim for your future and by using that aim you study hard that's good but what if you study so hard at the end you can't even get what you wanted...? many people scold me for the words and sentence that I made... they yelled at me "if you don't try how you know!!!?" well.... is not that matter on how you know or how you get it and there's no point getting it we don't born with books we born with knowledge let me tell you do you know WHY!!! people studying so hard!?? is bcoz they need

1)to face the society

2)to face their parents

3)to gain knowledge

if you are studying to gain knowledge I don't mind but study just to face the SOCIETY and your PARENTS????parents always taught their children to study hard and get more A's in result to get a better job in the future.... Job there's no worse or best.... is just base on your interest you you can't say those people who do jobs like prostitute,people who helps you to clear your trash cans , deliver are worse and a shame you cannot say that....!!! I mean YOU CANNOT EVEN MENTION IT OR THINK OF IT!!!! if just like you say those jobs are lower degree and lower payment what happen if everyone don't do those kind of job?are you going to clear your own trash cans??? are going to deliver things YOURSELF!!!???

Got one of my uncle last time he work as a delivery boy about 40years ago he pass by one roll of rich people houses got one of them came out and called my uncle to stop she brings out her children and pointed to my uncle and say " this is what going to happen to you if you don't study hard" My uncle that time was so sad and despair how can a person say those words!!!!! become a delivery boy izit really that bad!?? he ask himself a lot of time and he now he said the answer is a NO... he told me every part of his life and how he have been through such a sadness life but now you see he is a Doctor from a delivery boy to a doctor? can you imagine???I was wondering what happen to those rich people? their children....what happen now??? doing delivery??? haha I hope they do so and learn their lesson

Don't let books cover you,you should be the one who covers the book.... what books have taught us is all other peoples creation,discoveration and their solution.... we studying the wrong thing if we keep follow the books we will never improve...think out of the box is the main thing to do... not just base on book..(everyone don't get it wrong I didn't say book is useless I just say books is not everything) we study books just to face the society remember that.... do you think exam is useful? let me tell you exam IS NOT USEFUL AT ALL.... some people might say exam is to prove how much you know about that subject... well let me tell you...people can just memories the whole book and they get excellent result in all exam/test... is it that call KNOWING THE SUBJECT??? you just memories it and A is in your hands so what exam/test for? to see how well you memories the book!!? is it...? don't study just to get the A,study because you want to know/learn... Do more experiment and experience how that thing works not just read the book... I really hate parents which FORCE their children TO STUDY...everyday papers comes out and there's are children committing suicide BCOZ CAN'T ACHIEVE THEIR PARENTS TARGET parents are you really stupid!!!? do you really need your children to study for you!!!??? are you willing to lose a life then forcing them to study!!!??? My parent scold me for writing this then I ask them why?? why can't I write this?? why is it bcoz I point out all parents doing to their children??? my parents even say is bcoz of us..we as a children don't know what parents are thinking...my parent say they force us to study is for the good of our future.I know study hard can make us find a "GREAT" job... what happen is... we as a children we are still young and not that smart to think...shouldn't parent guild us if we don't know which is good or bad? but parents just don't understand as well... there's a family in Singapore his older son pass away from jumping off 10 story building bcoz didn't get the target of A's that his parents needed.... his sister told in front all of the people she say while crying really sadly watching her brother die in front of her..she said my brother is not that smart he just know that if he don't study hard and get A's my parent will wack him,hit him,some times even take belt to wack on his back so is this a parents doing or a gangster doing? parent should guild us on a right track not guild us to one tunnel and thats the end of the road... Nowadays parent don't know how to behave as a parent that makes children don't behave on behalf their age... we children sometimes do things wrong is not because we don't know that doing is wrong is just that we follow what our parents did... people say "parent is the role modal of a child" and that is true about it... we children don't know how to differentiate what's right what's wrong...ok some other children might mature enough to know which is right or wrong but bcoz of their parents keep doing thing which is not good make them feel like if he does it also not wrong... do you guys get it!!?? O.o?

well....never mind if I wrote so many and if you all still can't understand is ok I just can only dedicate this song to you "CRY ON MY SHOULDER" if you feel sad or feel stress don't mind sharing it with me I'm be glad to be your listener and your entertainer is like a person crying and I'm his/her shoulder...I will guild you with all my will...Parents hope you understand some times we children don't study we also have our reason so please do understand us

I'll tell you guys one story to point out how smart is the student instead of a world best-est professor....one day there's a tutor visit on a science lab research centre, there's a kid which is very naughty and disturbing when the school reach the science lab everyone was full with question in their heads and keep asking the professor what is this what is that...that naught kid was left alone bcoz he scared and afraid to ask...so he act like he knew everything and start to bullshit to all other students in the lab and say "ah ya this 1 I know lar,that 1 I know lar" so there this one professor looking at him like a disrespect to the creation that he made so he walk forward and ask where are you from? what's your parents name? that kid answer "Y I must tell you?" the professor went angry and scold the kid to get out!!! the kid then say "ok professor since you so "SMART" how about we play a game i will ask you one question if you cannot answer my question you give me RM10.then you ask me one question if I can't answer yours I will give you RM1 fair??" the professor agree and so this game begins

professor question the kid

Which animal average brain have the size of it's body?(answer is ant)

the kid answer "duno" and gave the professor RM1

so is the kid turn and he ask which cow have 6 legs but no tail?

professor *thinking* for quite a moment then he say "duno" so he give the kid RM10

then is the professor turn,he ask which object is 3x hotter than the SUN(answer a lightning bolt)

the kid can't answer so he give the professor the RM1

later on is the Kid turn so he asked what is my grandfather name?

the professor *thinking*(are you joking me?) then the whole crowded people laughing and say professor you been cheat by this young kid then only the professor realize no matter how the question goes the kid sure still win the money bcoz from what the small kid ask is no logic question but got to answer his question only can avoid paying the small kid

To all parents please don't think children are not smarter than you.... some times is better that you listen to them instead of they listen to you get it? respect them although they might be young but they might be the universal teacher that no one knows.... don't ever think that you are smarter than anyone

Love Represents Everything To Me

Well this is all my latest drawing is all related to Love and how to love in the picture it show how much that I want a person to Love me and how much I can love a person

well....a Love can be shown or apply when there are 2 party's around

Actually myself I never think of couple or finding my the other half (mate) bcoz my life is completely full with pain and hurting scene so I don't want my the other mate feel the same as mine I kept everything inside of me but when things ran over the limit I just will burst it out by hurting people or screams

My parents didn't treat me the way I want them to be and they just scream to one and another about their works and attitude....things that happen outside they bring back home let their children to suffer what have they suffered....they just don't think what's gonna happen to the kid if they do so....they just scold for no reason they just beat for no reasons just to release their stress... we as a children are not meant to be born and to be torture like this... don't treat us like we aren't your children

Well....a huge painful life have change until I found my first she taught everything about love to me she even taught me how to treat people that used to be treated and taught me how to find true friends or a better mate in the future I'm glad that she taught me that much I though I can be with her forever but she say we can be together coz I don't understand her that's what she say...on that day she broke up with me I feel sad and scared that I will fall back to the Life I don't want to be in... I change myself by search all kind of research and experience on Love and regrading relationship with other

after 2 years of researching and now here I am I have learn a lot of things girls and guys and how they react when they have contact with the other sex and much much more information

for me now I couple with other is not just for Love but also understanding and knowledge that get from the other mate so.... hope in the future my true mate will never be suffered bcoz of me

I love you til the day I die
no matter now or in the future I'll still love you
through all pain and tough time
but now I stay in Heaven
and you are still guiding my grave
so..before I die I wish to bring you with me
and guild you above the heavens
I LOVE YOU 당신을 사랑합니다

Rain

A lot of people thinks that rain is just a few drops of water from the sky but...for me I feel like the rain is a sign of the heaven tears....heaven is crying for human race they feel sad for our action and deeds but human just don't realize it.... there's a story told by a wise friend of mine

This story is about a family with a father having the 3rd stage of cancer....the story starts I am always mesmerized by rain fall. I get lost in the sound and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world. Memories of running, splashing so carefree as a child come pouring in as a welcome reprieve from the worries of my day. Her voice was so sweet as it broke the hypnotic trance we were all caught in. “Mom, let’s run through the rain,” she said.

“What?” Mom asked.

“Let’s run through the rain!” she repeated.

“No, honey. We’ll wait until it slows down a bit,” Mom replied.

This young child waited about another minute and repeated her statement. “Mom. Let’s run through the rain.”

“We’ll get soaked if we do,” Mom said.

“No, we won’t, Mom. That’s not what you said this morning,” the young girl said as she tugged at her Mom’s arm.

“This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?”

“Don’t you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer, you said, “If God can get us through this, He can get us through anything!”

The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear you couldn’t hear anything but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes. Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say.

Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly. Some might even ignore what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child’s life. A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith.

“Honey, you are absolutely right. Let’s run through the rain. If God lets us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing,” Mom said. Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes through the puddles. They held their shopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed by a few believers who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars. Perhaps inspired by their faith and trust. I want to believe that somewhere down the road in life, Mom will find herself reflecting back on moments they spent together, captured like pictures in the scrapbook of her cherished memories.

Maybe when she watches proudly as her daughter graduates. Or as her Daddy walks her down the aisle on her wedding day. She will laugh again. Her heart will beat a little faster. Her smile will tell the world they love each other.

But only two people will share that precious moment when they ran through the rain believing that God would get them through. And Yes, I did. I ran. I got wet. I needed washing.

To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under the heaven.

I was born in 1994....I was born with a weak lungs my doctor said if I do anything which is over excess to my lungs I will die....well on first I don't no anything about it until I jog in around my house suddenly my lung felt so hard to breath I thought I going to die on that split second but everything change when I fell in to my house pool I thought I was drowning myself can't believe is I felt like...I gain back my breathing system...and something shocked happens there's a bright light right in font of me....I was awake and I saw myself lying on top of the ground and it was raining that time.... My head felt so dizzy...from that day onwards I start to like water neither the rain....every time I jump inside the pool I can see everything even my life that's why now you can see me most of the time in the pool

Rain comes and falls

which no set of time when it falls

I want a to control the rain falls

because when I'm sad

there's rain to cover for me

sadness beyond will leave me

so rain I really glad that God didn't take you away

because without you my life ends straight away

so please don't go away

I need you when time says

rain you bring wonder to this world

that shows me what is world

let me live on,on this world

thanks Rain you are always there for me